Will made in english language

ALONE! That what i feel now. I think no one care to me. WHY? That's my only one question. No boyfriend. Just had many friends. Thought my friends NOT ALWAYS THERE FOR ME. Why? Am i ugly? Thought not. Everytime everywhere i always see a girl whatever their age are with a boy. And they flirting each other. And they seems happy. I... Don't have any boyfriend to flirt with. I just can wonder. Right now. I am liking no one. I wonder my I Y C friends that i thought my ex-boyfriend but truly no. N an da he's quiet handsome. Like chinese. A gamer. A hacker. He will perfectly fit with me. But, his age 1 year under me ;'( and i am to shy even just ask him to chat with me. And of course he didn't know anything about me. Even maybe he seems not knowing me or recognize me either ;( my life is so cruel. I always wonder being popular. Being a perfect person with wonderful boyfriend. Right now. I want a boyfriend. But. Not boyfriend from facebook that just a virtual world. I want we know each other perfectly. So there's nothing can block us to stay together. Oh one more people. D ir ga at the first time i saw his photos that he got from his webcam. It's dark. So i think he won't be as handsome as i want him to. Second time. I saw him from his photo when he was at the beach. Ugh a bunch of people with dark and careless skin. Them i think he's ugly. But this morning. I saw another photo of him. And i saw him directly when i pointed my mouse to a cute boy. And it said that boy was him! ! ! I was shocked LMFAO so all my thought's was wrong. He's a cute boy for sure. Yay i like him. Umm... Not like maybe. Just impressed. Oh oh oh one more boy. The one i always tempt in pico his name is... Truly i don't know what his real name. But he named himself R uk i in pico. My tempt to him at first time i saw him : cuteeeeeeeeee ( i don't have any worries in virtual world. Because even so he won't know me right? LMFAO ). Yesterday i saw his photo in facebook. At first time i thought that just a fake photos of him. But when i looked closer. I thought that was real photo. That's a really cute photo of a japanese boy. Wow i impressed. But thought i still doubt that that photo was fake. Because he's an indonesian like me and he live in bogor. I think that's enough. Sorry if i made mistake in this entry. I not good enough in grammar.